To say I am going nowhere at the speed of light is a bit of an understatement. The only movement in my life is the circles I make every day going to work, providing service, and returning home again. Meanwhile. The circles in my head spin out of control and each second takes me farther from who I hoped to be. Lost does not even begin to describe it. Lost in the familiar, the mundane. Ground to a forgotten powder and left in the rain to wash away. I regret nothing. I think I was just born to fall.
Another night full of anger and disappointment … wrong turns eventually have tiling get you in the right direction right? Either way I am done with this town. Pack our bags tonight. We dine in different pastures in the morning. As the sun rises so will I to a world without the faces of these friends that fill my life up to the brim with nothing at all. There are a few that do not fall to this allegiance and to them I sadly say farewell for now. The foes have won so off I run to different streets. I will come back again for those of true hearts to rescue you as I am able. Grind on for now and don’t forget the fire rises as shall we.
Nurse Flamingo has had enough. Let’s burn this city to its ashes. Coat the rubble in napalm so the fire never losses its luster. And the children can warm their hands while the stars burn like daggers above them
Love this guy
Well, maybe. I know that mine are. They are sister always so bad that I spend the entire next day brooding over them and unable to shake the feeling that they gave me.
Last nights dream was a perfect example. I dreamt that my girlfriend of 8 years decided that we had grown apart and had no reason to stay together so she was leaving me. She also was moving to Florida with my baby. I spent the entire dream crying and feeling helpless. I woke up convinced that it was going to happen and now all day I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop.